Journal August 29, 1952

The time in Alinore’s life when she notices Kurthanyo is changing.

My heart is broken as I sit and write to my journal. I love Kurthanyo so very much and I don't know why he is acting so different. He used to be so kind and gentle, and considerate and just not to me, but to others. That is why I fell in love with him. Now, all he thinks of is money and how to make more. He is obsessed with it. And I am sure he is doing illegal things and hurting other people to get what he wants, on his way to his so called riches. We don't even need much money. We have magic. What is wrong with him?

He treats me so terrible. Just this morning, I called to remind him of our date tonight and just to say good morning and that I missed him. He snapped at me, telling me he was busy and to get out of his face, that I was annoying him. He never used to ever, say anything like that. In fact, he couldn't wait to hear from me.

His voice has even changed, it sounds different, like it's not him, if that makes any since at all. He was so mad at me for calling him that he called off our date. Then, about an hour later, he phoned me back as if our conversation this morning never existed. He had the nerve to ask me what time our date was. His moods are up and down and to the extreme.

I can't even go to mother for advice because Kurthanyo and I aren't even supposed to be seeing each other. It's not allowed. The witches' council told us we should not marry. Mother would have a conniption fit if she knew what we did. It's a secret, a secret I can't even tell my journal. It's too risky if anyone was to read this.

Kurthanyo and I went out for supper for our date. We had a wonderful time and enjoyed each other's company. I noticed he had been picking at his food all evening. We were about to leave when he had this anguish, evil look on his face instantly appear. He yelled at the waiter and tossed some food at him. He said, "It's not fit to eat." And caused quit a scene. The stupid thing is, the food was excellent. It was delicious and perfect. I tried to get Kurthanyo to just pay and leave, but he wanted to see the manager and gave me a strong push. I fell onto the table that was next to us. I was so upset that I walked out and beamed home. I left him there. No sooner had I put on my nightgown, the doorbell rang. It was Kurthanyo of course. Allison came to tell me he wanted to talk. I said no, I did not want to talk to him. I told her to tell him to call me in the morning. I am too tired to deal with it right now, so she sent him home. I am too angry to talk to him and was afraid what he might say or do to me. He has to tell me what is going on and why he is acting this way. I'll get to the bottom of it tomorrow.